4. Chapter 4
Thirty years it has been since I saw you last. You left Imladris at my father's request to learn and better yourself. Truth be told, I missed your stolen glances and your silent gaze. How are you my Estel? What have you learned from the world? I do hope you are well and safe. Life in Imladris has not been the same without you. Even my brothers seemed lost without your company. Tell me my Estel, do you now know the meaning of love?
Leaves began to fall here in Rivendell. I have been restless. My heart will not set. I find my thoughts straying to you at night. My cold nights have been warmed by the memories of your mischief with my brothers. It brought a smile to my lips and I found myself wondering where you are and do you feel me? Hear me? Miss me, even?
My father saw this. He saw my restlessness and my disquiet. He came to me and asked me what was bothering me. How could I tell him that it was you Estel? For you have been on my mind since the day you left. I imagined in my mind what would you look like now... It has been thirty years. How long is your hair and how broad have your shoulders become? Will I see you with a changed gaze, my dear? Will my mind be made up when I see you again?
My troubled heart needed release. I sought the company of my grandmother Galadriel for she is wise. Perhaps she could help me tame my heart. The golden woods gleamed under the sun. I have been here for many moons now and all the while you have been on my mind and kept close to my heart. How are you Estel? Where are you now?
It was a still, cool night. Sleep did not come to me. You have been on my mind and now I find myself aching for you. My heart could not bear the hurt. Is this love? I asked you once what do you know about love? Yet, three hundred lives of Men I have lived, I found myself pondering the question myself. Oh, Estel... Return to me a changed man. I will love you whole heartedly.
I walked down the path from my talan. The air was cool and the stars shone bright. Solitude was what I seek to help me calm my turbulent heart. Through lowered lashes I saw you. My heart quickened as I looked at you. A smile formed on my face. I said to you once, to venture out and prove your worth. Then with one gaze I would have made my mind. I looked at you and I saw a man. On your face were lines of experience and on your broad shoulders, the weight of that knowledge.
I said to you once, with one gaze I would have made my mind. I lifted my gaze and saw you standing there. You walked towards me with anticipation and a smile on your face. I was gladdened to see you and joy filled my heart. Estel... I have made up my mind. I love you...
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