to me who under eaves of silent shadow ran,
who played with darkness' silken veil and chased the dawn
in memories long lost before the day began.
But little did he know then of the shining stars,
the twilight's son, unknowing child of ignorance,
torn from a dream-world's half-existent reverie,
he stumbled at the iron gates of providence.
And I forgot the shadows of my shrouded home,
forgot my name and found myself within your eyes.
I knew not of this realm of fire ere I burned,
like one who never knows of death until he dies.
But I, night-stained, a shadow, dare not touch
your wide-eyed luminance, your fragile grace,
lest they, defiled and broken by such sacrilege,
grow dim and distant on your lovely face.
A creature of the night, of shadow born,
that shadow fled, yet never can outrun,
I gave myself up to the searing flames to burn
and burn I did yet never reached the sun.
Do you not hear me screaming as I drown?
Save me but once and I shall ask no more!
Yet winter-eyed your kindness wouldst deny
one whose destruction seems so easy to ignore.
Come, flame, and burn that which salvation scorned,
the depths of hell my fate, not starlight far too bright,
its searing beauty his, not ever mine,
who slipped and gave myself up to the night.
Yet memory is curse and torture still,
the gleaming towers and the crystal dome,
they, too, shall burn, soon, and my heart be still.
Father, behold, your broken son is coming home.
1. who under eaves of silent shadow ran - Maeglin, the only son of Eöl, called the Dark Elf, and Aredhel Ar-Feiniel, sister to Turgon of Gondolin, was born in the forest of Nan Elmoth where he spent his childhood
2. the twilight's son - in secret Aredhel called her son Lómion (translated 'Son of Twilight'), Maeglin ('Sharp Glance') was the name his father Eöl gave him years later
3. iron gates of providence - refers to the hidden city of Gondolin which Maeglin reached with his mother after their flight from Nan Elmoth. Prophecy said that Ulmo, the Lord of the Waters, would send a messenger to Gondolin as a sign of doom approaching. This messenger was the human Tuor, later husband of Idril Celebrindal and father of her son Eärendil, whose fate is interwoven with Maeglin's.
4. the depths of hell my fate, not starlight far too bright - being rejected by Idril Maeglin betrayed Gondolin to Morgoth
5. the gleaming towers and the crystal dome, they, too, shall burn, soon, and my heart be still - Maeglin's treason led to the Fall of Gondolin and the destruction of the hidden city
6. Father, behold, your broken son is coming home - before he died Eöl cursed his son that he should suffer his father's fate. Eöl's curse was fulfilled when Tuor cast Maeglin from the walls of Gondolin in the battle for the city.
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